Memory

In 2006 we attended a wedding together.

It was outside Tulbagh on a farm in desolate wild countryside.  I was in love: your heart, body, the irreparable sadness that stained your face.

On the last day we went for a swim in the dam, do you remember?

I swam out first in the morning air, pushing the water aside.  It was quiet except for ducks waddling about and the slow humm of insects baking in the sun.  You sat to the side chewing on a stem of grass, following my slow progress.  When I had almost reached the other side you walked around to where I was heading, slipped into the water and waited for me.  When I reached you we kissed and embraced.  You picked me up and whispered for me to hold on. 

I leaned my cheek on your shoulder and the water stirred around us as you pushed back into the dam, slowly walking with me, clasping me to your chest.  I'll look after you, you whispered in my ear.  It's ok, you're here with me.  Don't be afraid.  I'll be by your side.  I'll never leave you behind.