Alice is in a mood. A black cloud with thunder and lightning has been following her around the past 48 hours and everyone can see it. Thusly Alice is left alone. Alice needs to breathe. To sleep. To move to a different room. And she has!
So that would be the good news:
A fellow cleaner left the city today and a bed opened up in a room containing one Russian (I know, they're everywhere) and one Japanese girl (who is hoping to go to circus school). Alice moved into that lovely bed before the previous sleeper had completely lifted her ass off it. Ah yes.The promise of silence, or at least congeniality.
I know I should sound more excited about this but I'm not feeling excited, I'm feeling generally moody and pissed off. Which is actually a welcome change from feeling melancholic and sad. (All this might be ascribed to the fact that I ran out of my herbal hormone boosters about a month and a half ago. God I loved those pills. They regulate your hormone production and they totally changed my life.)
I worked a double today (in between moving) and now have blisters FROM WASHING DISHES. That's crazy talk people. I washed so many dishes today my mother would've given me a standing ovation. I'm trying to think of my hostel as being a very strange kind of ashram. A place where I can spiritually grow through hardship and that sort of crap. Or sumthin.
I walk around most days with my emotional center hanging out for everyone to see, like a rogue tit I can't subdue. Slap bang in the middle of my chest. Most of the time mine is buzzing with... well, with emotion. All kinds. I listen to music, bang, my emotional center goes into overdrive and opens right up. You need to worry when a song by Taylor Swift makes you feel emotional people. And that's what's happening. I'm folding washing and the next thing I know Taylor Swift has me crying. I mean am I for real?
I guess all of this is good. They say anger is... well its one of the stages of bereavement and mourning. And I guess that's what I'm doing.
It would have been nice to have a little privacy doing it though.
Did I mention how good this Corona tastes right now?
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