Standard Bank can stick it up their bums.
Most mornings start off with me sending hate mail to various different people and departments at said establishment. My insults seem to have improved over the last couple of days as my pms has crescendoed, but it still hasn't had the desired affect. They're cold and unresponsive, a familiar theme for them. It's part of their business plan you see. And I am just a number.
When I'm not busy sending them insulting letters I like to spend my time imagining their building going up in flames, that sort of thing. Thoughts of destruction have definitely been present.
And then, finally, when that wears off I worry about going back to SA, starting over, whatever might wait in my future. (I'm thinking tall, dark and handsome.) I look for cars on gumtree and sneak a peak at apartments and their rates. This is limbo: I'm dangling somewhere in the middle of two places, waiting for things to give and move.
In order to save myself from over-thinking my future I've made a small loan from me cousin and decided to hit the road one last time on Sunday. Hell, it's not like I'm going to get another chance to visit Boston anytime soon. I'll be there till Wednesday at which point I'll head back to NYC to spend Thanksgiving with Jana and Pat. Friday morning at 10h30 I jump a plane to Jozi.
My fear of flying doesn't seem to wear down and I'm going to have to come up with just the right coctail of tranquilizers to get me through 18 hours on a plane. Flying will definitely be more bearable if the plane is empty and spacious.
If not the person sitting next to me will need their own stash of tranqs in order to deal with me.
I'm not sharing.
Meds don't work. Why? Because they dull the very part of the mind the fearful flier needs to be able to tell that what he or she is imagining is NOT happening.
ReplyDeleteThe terror comes from beliving that what you fear IS happening or is ABOUT to happen.
Research shows when a split group of fearful fliers were given a placebo or meds (they didn't know which they were getting) those who received meds had TEN TIMES AS MANY PANIC ATTACKS.
More on this? Google this "fear of flying meds capt tom"
Thanks Captain, but from experience I know that tranqs work wonders for me.
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